Ashley

tough days

Fri, 13 Oct 2006 08:38:45 GMT

i really am low right now. finally revealed to my boyfriend that 5 months ago i got drunk and mess around with some random guy (no, we did not "go all the way") and please dont lecture me, i feel like shit and honestly do not know how to move past this one.. everyday feels like it gets harder and harder. the worst part is the look in his eyes. i have let him down sooo bad and i dont know how to make it right.
i also have been considering going to a therapist because i am beginning to think i am developing an ED. i have always been picky when i came to food and lately i have been noticing i will eat like two bites and then say i am full. i went on a frozen oj diet, wont eat pork, am deathly afraid of fat on meat.. ect. plus the fact that i am 5'3 and weigh only 102 and sometimes look in the mirror and feel like i look disgusting.
sorry guys, i know this post is a total downer.. i have just been depressed lately and needed some support.
excuse me while i go sob.

Wed, 09 Mar 2005 01:58:48 GMT

so i guess i am a slacker at this updating thing but the truth is i have absolutely nothin to update you on. Me & my boy both got diagnosed with mono which totally sucks. I'm bedridden and have been for almost 2 weeks & hes just fine right now but the blood work came back positive. Anyway, we havent been able to see eachother in 2 weeks so .. no action :[ and trust me, i am in some serious NEED of action. Anyone ever had mono? do u kno how long we should restrain from spit swapping or since we both have it, is it okay to kiss? Just wondering. Hope you are getting luckier than me! xoxox - the kisses (dont wanna get you sick :] )

p.s- the whole pregnancy symptoms + late period = mono
so no worries! thx for the comments tho :D!

mm cummmm

Tue, 22 Feb 2005 06:14:06 GMT

hey boys. srry to keep you waiting .. i have been insanely busy. i will go into more detail later but since it is already 10 and i havent even started my hw, im going to keep this short & sweet. i have never sucked a dick before, licked em, kissed em and jacked em off, but as for swallowing and really tasting one, never .. that is until tonight. My man can go for at least an hour, i swear he is truely blessed. so i decided to go down on him, hoping to make him cum faster (not that i dont love jacking him off for a long time, but after an hour my arm starts to hurt ;]) so i dove in, started to slide it in and out and i could feel him get excited. so i sat on his stomach with my back to him and leaned down to get a better angle on his hard dick. as i sucked it, he slide my legs back over his head and started licking my pussy. we continued 69in for a while and my god, i have never been eaten out before and it was one of the sexiest, most passionate things i have ever experianced. mm i love tounges ;] after he cummed i licked it off and swallowed, just like a good girl. i can still taste him .. mmm.

okay and now i have to ask a question and yes i might sound incredibly stupid for asking this but i am rather uneducated about oral sex and what not. I am over a week late for my period and although i cant think of any "risky behavior" the only thing i could think of is if he had a small amount of cum on his fingers and then he fingered me, is there any chance this could get me pregnant. again, i feel stupid for asking, but i'm getting kinda nervous. thanks so much. sweet [wet] dreams boys
xoxo Ash <3

Thu, 03 Feb 2005 01:02:59 GMT

for the last 15 minutes i have just been sitting here, thinking about sex and how much i want some action right now .. my god .. i am literally always horny. i needa boy kneeling between my legs .. ahh yes, that would be sooo nice right now.

places i am going to have sex b4 i die:
1. Beach
2. hot tub
3. taxi
4. airplane
5. elevator
6. front yard
7. swimming pool
8. in a friends bed .. where hopefully another couple will join ;]
9. a very public place (park, street, ect)
10. personal jet
11. at work
12. in a classroom

any ideas to add to my list? let me kno .. ;]

Tue, 01 Feb 2005 23:18:33 GMT

my fucking god. yesterday was incredible.. i met up with my boyfriend around 3:30, picked him up from school and we both could tell .. we wanted eachother. so i asked him wut he wanted to do and he said, why dont we go to that spot out in the country. i knew exactly where he meant because we had gone there several times together before we started going out, just to makeout and be alone. So I found our spot, parked and we immediatly jumped in the back seat. My car is an old Mazda Prodiege (sp?) so when someone drives by they can see inside which made it feel even naughtier. so i straddled him and we made out for at least an hour. I was wearing a short skirt so from time to time his hand would travel up my thighs, teasing me, but he never touched. Finally i rolled over and he got ontop of me and slid his hand all the way up, pushed aside my thong and started fingering me, slowly at first untill he was pounding me so hard i had to bit my lip so i wouldnt scream. While he was going at it a car drove by, slowed down, then sped away. lol. So anyway he was working it, but fingering doesnt give me a whole lot of pleasure, turns me on, but as for climaxing, it gets me nowhere. So i gently raised his hands up to my clit and he began rubbing back and forth. I finally had to take his hands off it because i was so sore and my clit couldnt take anymore. I looked at the clock right before he started and then right after he finished .. 40 fucking minutes of pleasure and still no orgasm :[. I gave up, rolled him off, got on top and slowly unzipped his pants while kissing his neck. He was so hard and i started wacking the shit outa his dick since i figured i owed him for the 40 minutes it took me. He cummed in about 2 minutes. Then we both layed in eachothers arms while occasional kissing .. pure ecstasy :] I was walking into the house when i got home and i could barely walk .. i bet my parents were wondering why i was slightly limping .. i've neevr had such a long pussy pleasure session in my entire life .. cant wait for the next one.

went home and layed my clit under the gushing water .. it was one of the most intense orgasms i have ever had..

hope that turned you on ;]

*Question* how long is a guy willing to perform oral sex on a girl.. i wasnt sure if i should have let him stop sooner, but it felt so good. let me know! thx.

i have an idea .. lol

Tue, 01 Feb 2005 04:55:47 GMT

so i was thinking about it and i decided it would be really cool to have a journal to record the sexxxxual aspects of my life ;] since most of my friends dont know all about my sex life, i would prefer not to update about it in my day to day journal so WALA! welcome to the sex journal of me :D. although it might be boring as i am still a virgin, i will be sure to update about my wildest fantasies, getting pleasure from my boyfriend (or my fingers :P, ect.. so if you would like to read more.. comment and i will most defintly add ya.

Sun, 30 Jan 2005 23:19:53 GMT

sup? I made this journal so i can post in communities and stuff w/o using my regular journal. add me and i'll add ya to my real journal.. i'm not really gunna update in here.